I answered my old suicide note. My sloppy handwriting hasn’t changed over the years, but I have.
In case it’s illegible to others, here’s what the notes say.
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Dear you--
I hope I can read this from Heaven. That is where I might be.
I don’t matter here and nobody notices how bad I feel.
I tasted a toilet today.
I’m done. All’s I can do is die and get this done. Everybody is better off without me. I don’t deserve to live. I suck and I’m so ugly. I deserve nothing good.
I am sorry.
Cyndi 1996
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Dear You--
You’re still here. Look at yourself. You survived. You achieved some of your biggest dreams. You are using your pain to help others.
You do matter here. You’re making other people see their own worth. Your message made a girl put down her razor.
You’re still here. You made it.
It got better.
Love,
Cyndi 2014
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To bullying survivors out there: I challenge you to write an answer to your suicide notes. What would you say to your younger self now?
In case it’s illegible to others, here’s what the notes say.
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Dear you--
I hope I can read this from Heaven. That is where I might be.
I don’t matter here and nobody notices how bad I feel.
I tasted a toilet today.
I’m done. All’s I can do is die and get this done. Everybody is better off without me. I don’t deserve to live. I suck and I’m so ugly. I deserve nothing good.
I am sorry.
Cyndi 1996
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Dear You--
You’re still here. Look at yourself. You survived. You achieved some of your biggest dreams. You are using your pain to help others.
You do matter here. You’re making other people see their own worth. Your message made a girl put down her razor.
You’re still here. You made it.
It got better.
Love,
Cyndi 2014
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To bullying survivors out there: I challenge you to write an answer to your suicide notes. What would you say to your younger self now?