It'll be officially one year old after midnight PST!
Hard to believe now...and I'm not sorry for doing it, either.
Hard to believe now...and I'm not sorry for doing it, either.
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Somebody who really hurt and upset my mom passed away. In a way, she was kind of a bully. I won't name names, but at her death she was a very miserable person. People don't hurt people unless there's something hurting them inside. I can't imagine a decent person just deciding one day to alienate everyone they know for no reason. I won't go into the details, but I will say it takes a LOT for my mom to end a friendship with someone, and this woman managed to do it. I went to the funeral of that person today. Mom and I went together. It was beautiful, but her family COMPLETELY ignored her chosen recessional hymn and put in something else. This person wanted "Jesus, Remember Me" and instead the family threw in "How Great Thou Art" despite hearing many times what this woman wanted. So after the funeral, I stood by the hearse and I sang "Jesus, Remember Me" all by myself. I shut my eyes and forgave, and I stopped hearing the people around me. It was just me in the presence of God, giving the gift of my voice to say goodbye. You know what? The anger I had lifted away. I gave it to God, and now it's gone. She is at peace and I am at peace knowing she is out of pain. It was exactly the same feeling I had when I did my cover of Linkin Park's Iridescent, and I'm so glad I did it. Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom. Today is also the one year anniversary of Amanda Todd's suicide. Amanda Todd was the straw the broke the camel's back for me. She needed someone to stand up for her, to help her, to hold her and tell her she meant something. My regret is not knowing about her sooner and not creating my message sooner. Amanda Todd is the reason my message exists. Too many people use the internet to hurt people. Dammit, I'm going to use it to heal! And that is what I set out to do. In exactly one week, the Affirmations for Bullying Victims will celebrate its one year anniversary. I don't regret it one bit. I don't expect thanks or recognition, I want only for those in pain to find hope in my message. I'm sorry that my blogging isn't consistent. Having people in my family with health issues makes it difficult to do much of anything time-consuming online on a regular basis. That is why I love Twitter. I can throw a sentence out there and run off without feeling like I've let someone down.
For those who don't know, the Twitter for the AFBV is @BeAffirmed and I tweet with the hashtag #afbv. There should be a little widget visible on the lower right hand edge of this blog. That may not be the case for those using a mobile device. I update the AFBV Twitter every day when I wake up in the morning. On Sundays it's early, usually between 7:30am and 8am Pacific Standard Time, as I get up early for church(I sing in the choir, which takes preparation before Mass.) On any other day, barring having to rise early for something, I usually will tweet anywhere between 8 and 10:30am PST, depending on when I get up(usually it's around 9am or so). I like to tweet the first positive thought that comes into my head when I wake up. It's how I always start my day. If there is a rare occasion where I don't tweet, it's probably because I literally had to get up at the buttcrack of dawn, RUN to get ready and didn't return until late. (Rare, but for some choir obligations it's necessary!) I may completely forget about Twitter on days like that, but I try to make time if it's at all possible. It depends on how quick my computer boots itself up. I hope my positive morning words help someone else start their day. Stay beautiful out there! |
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